If its so great, why don't I feel happy?

Why, o why, after all that we've done with getting the house approved and closed on do I feel so down about it? I should be thrilled, right? Im a homeowner, one of the landed middle class, I exist with the beacon of my own little space on the tax map of Lincoln-yet I feel, well, whelmed.

No confetti, sunshine beam, hand holding while smiling man hands us keys to the background of Polyphonic Spree. A lot of papers, three unruly ( 2 of them wet) kids, and a plastic pen. Hmph. I have one key and K ran off with it to go paint so I didnt even get the satisfaction of putting the key on my ring.

Im excited, I really am-its just going to be a lot of work moving again and K has to work over the weekend. Id like to go gaming with M and not deal with the kids or any of it but I don't think that is going to happen-last week it was distracting to have them there. Id like to play on a night when Im there by myself without the 'girls' or the kids sometimes-I get to go out, but when K goes out I have the kids most of the time. When I go out we all go because the girls still want to get together. *sigh* I need to find a hobby or a friend not related to my wife and her friends.

Got my grades , though. Due to an attendance issue I got an F because there is a fixed two miss policy. I got a 2.9 for the term, and my cumulative is a 3.4. I can get that to a 3.6 or so in 8 hours-maybe a 3.7 by the time I graduate. Should be enough for honors I think.

I close I close

Well, we close tomorrow @ 100. Lunch at 1230 until 2-hopefully that will be enough time. Appliances are in, we are go for liftoff.